The light in the dark.

I've got no idea why.
But its just a random feeling,
leading me to blogging
and dedicating it to people.
may not be very long though.
Its in any random order though, so yeah.
Dont mind me. Haha.
And if your names appear here, let me know
after you guys read it, so i'll know. Thanks!
1. Andrea Koh.
Hey girl, i hope you are alright.
Read what you wrote, able to imagine how you feel.
i understand you've many problems.
perhaps you wanna find something you really like to do,
so when you're feeling down, you can do that
to feel better again.
No matter what, you still have to tolerate all these,
till you are old enough to move out.
Right now, dont bottle everything up, find someone
to talk to. Someone that you feel comfortable with, to talk
about all these. In any case, i hope you'll be alright really soon.
After all, there's still people in the world who cares about you.
And i hope that cheer you up alittle.
Talk to me/spam me soon, if you really need to or want to!
See you in school tmr. (:
Text me when you see this alright! :D
2. Cheryl Koh.
Heyheyhey Bestfriend!
All the little tags i left on facebook, the smses
and msn msgs, i hope they cheered you up
from everything you are going through now.
Really hope we are in the same school, at least
you can talk to me anytime.
Distance is the problem. But still, i hope
we can meet up for lunch really soon.
Because i know you have alot alot alot to talk to me
about esp 'someone'. HAHAHA, inside joke! :D
Okayokay. Like what you told me, you'll be alright,
wont be sad and all. So hope it will continue like that.
Afterall, O's this year, so JYJY!
See you soon, BESTFRIEND! :D
3. Teo Kaibin.
Heyyyyyyyyyy BROTHERRRRRRRRRR!
Thanks for being there for me, when im really down.
And being my advisor and nice guy!
I have lots of fun talking and spamming the
conversation together with you, esp someone's ebuddy so slow hor.
Then always lagging behind! HAHAHAHA.
And chill uh. See you tmr, then tell me what you want to
say. Must pour out everythinggggggg, and be a happy boy
after that. Cheers! :D
4. Ang Weitian; ahhhh tian!
Ahhhhhhh tian! HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
I love going high with you. Its really fun.
All your high-ness, make me forget all my
troubles. But still, dont be so crazy uh.
Im missing you leh, can you believe it!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okayokay. I bet you have many stories to tell me
tmr. Im so excited to hear from you.
I bet its gonna be really funny. And, dont
be so angry about the thing uh. Cheer up.
Because after all, haha. you know what im thinking! :D
If you dont, ask me, i'll tell you! Here not 'fang bian'.
SEE YOU TMRRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D
And yeah. We'll go out tgt soon.
I will go plan time and day, let you know soon! (:
5. Koh Yi Ling
Heyyyyyyyyy. Like what i mentioned in the sms,
i've got alots of things to tell you.
So meet up soon. Perhaps dinner if
we cant make it for lunch tgt.
Hahaha, and miss you!
See you around tmr. Await for my stories. :D
6. Teo Yi Lin
Hey Girl! Heard from you last night!
Your good news. The one you've been
waiting for. Congrats! Sorry for not being
able to meet you up during the june hols.
I've got lots of things to tell you.
I miss the few hours of phone calls each time
we talked and updated each other on our lives.
We have so many common topics to talk about,
so many things to share. And once we start talking,
we always fail to end, until phones start dying on us.
Ahh, miss those moments. Moments where we
are feeling so bored, we spend so much time at bbt,
like we dont have to go home. I guess we have to meet up
really soon. Im so looking forward to our intensive
studying session tgt. Probably @ starbucks yeah!
Talk to you soon, and i obviously miss you bestfriend.
See you in school, a few more hrs to go! :D
7. Zoey Peh
Hey Sister! Kangeroo bestfriend!
Its been really long since we updated each other
on our lives.
Will do it soon alright. PSPS.
Intensive studying session with you and J soon.
Really got many things to tell you sisters!
Haha. And yeah, didnt get to meet up with you
during june hols. So sorry.
I will definitely go high in school tmr okay!
See you in a few hrs time. :D
8. Jomin Seow
Heyyyyy HIIIIII.
Its been longer since we talked.
Same as what i mentioned about.
Got really lots of stuffs to tell you sisters,
so will tell you all tmr.
Await for my long stories. Dont mind me,
for being too high tmr. Hahaha!
Okayokay, see you tmr. :D
9. Tan Siang ying
Hey my number 1 fan! :D
Hope you are coping well with the post.
There'll be more to handle when school starts,
in a few hours time. Do feel free to talk to me
about anything. Because you know we are similar
in the background. HAHAHA!
I'll find time to talk to you really soon. Miss
going high with you. :D
Talk to you soon okay!
10. T.
Hey HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
A great friend that spend the longest amount
of hours talking to me, understanding and cheering me up
each time i needed some smiley face. :D
Thank you for teaching me mathhhhhhhh,
and stop spamming me with humanities.
darfur? Haha, oh well. Just joking around.
Actually, i dont know what to write here because
i did tell you all these before? yes? Haha.
Seriously, you are someone that understand me
quite alot, always have a way to make me alright
somehow. In short, enjoyed talking to you,
and i hope you did too. When i think of more,
i will tell you myself. And same for you,
distance is the problem.
So see you after o's i guess. :D
I will wait, till then!
Alright, its the end of my dedication.
If you didnt see your name, please dont be sad.
You are still important in my life somehow.
And if you want a dedication, pls let me know alright.
For now, it'll be like that.
School is starting in a few more hrs time.
1. I miss all my bestfriends/ clique mates / sisters
and everyone else, so i guess it'll be great to see them again.
2. It'll be horrible because everything will be so fast-paced
for students taking O's. So jy everyone.
3. Lastly, i hope i can cope with all the hws and
studying at the same time.
So from tmr onwards, i guess i'll be going home straight
after school. But i will be able to make it for lunch,
if anyone wants. Esp C and YLs :D
Ask me alright! Oh yeah, i'll not be blogging
as frequent, since priority is studies now.
Sorry people, stay tuned.
Okay, thats all.
Bye.

Memorable 2010

25th june.
First of all.
Happy 17th birthday Huiping!
So, i've been really lazy to elaborate
about life and all.
But still, i've decided to remain lazy.
Haha. Somehow, i dont find any
motivation to get out of my lazy-ness.
And the most horrible thing of all,
school is starting in about two more days.
Yes, i hate going to school.
Im totally not looking forward to school.
It isnt like other years, where i'll always be
looking forward to schooling because i missed
my best friends/friends until i can get depression.
I dont look forward to school though long
holidays can be really boring and dull.
For me, its really very different this time round.
And im glad to say, im loving it.
For this june holidays, i managed to enjoy myself alot.
Perhaps this will only be the part that i'll miss in 2010.
All the meetups with people who make up
the most important part of my life.
All the fun we shared, all the listening ears,
all the secrets we shared.
And not forgetting people who showed concern
when im feeling down.
Thank you people! You guys made june 2010 really
memorable.
I LOVE YOU PEOPLE.
The happiness that i've been missing since 2007.
Really thank you! I'll remember you guys.
And ytd was really awesome/wonderful/great.
However, im lazy to elaborate. So yeah, pictures spam. :D



















































































































And now, wait for school to start
and mug like crazy for olvl.
Bye.

Dont let the memories fade away.

I'm getting lazy to post.
So not gonna elaborate much on anything.
In short, did Amath the whole day ytd.
And some humanities. Haha.
Great day yesterday.
Dont ask why, you dont have to know. :D
Plan for tdy gonna be more Amath, and
out at night with the loved ones.
Before i go, C, this is for you.
Really hope you will be alright and happy
really soon. I understand what you are going
through right now. Like what we said
and promised, we will always be there for each other.
Free to text/call each other up.
I'll meet you soon, real soon.
9yrs plus of friendship; bestfriend-ship.
Love you much! Stay strong.
K, bye.

Time should pass faster, ending the misery

Amath ended earlier tdy,
so went home because mum wants me
to be back home after lesson.
Amath was rate of change and normal, tangent qns.
Nothing much interesting to elaborate
about for the day.
Life is just about events repeating itself
over and over again, as boring as ever.
And now holidays are used for mugging and
completing homeworks.
Still cant believe school is starting again real soon.
I dislike it. Oh well.
I just have to keep reminding myself that everything
will be over real soon. Graduate soon, and find
somewhere to continue my education that i really like.
Im looking forward to nothing else except this.
And yeah, people closer to me told me that
i should feel more positive and that i dont
seem to care much about everything that is happening
around me.
Just want to tell you guys that i realise it too.
Im really sorry about that, if it affected you all
in anyway. I will try to be alright and happy soon.
Sigh, i need some faith i guess.
I really miss my primary school life alot.
Its the best so far ever.
All the true bestfriends, the teachers and of course
the rope-skippers. Really miss you guys alot.
Esp the rope-skippers. The days we trained
together in the morning while others are doing silent reading,
during recess and after school till 6plus.
Days where we didnt meet Mrs Pereira's expectations,
we were punished to run 5rounds around the hall,
each time we failed.
And since i was in three different categories, i had to do
triple if i fail to meet all three.
Days where i keep tripping over the ropes during my
individual routine.
Days where i broke my ropes, and spent time putting on the tapes.
Days where we went for competition, cheering on
for each other, and became the overall champion at the nationals.
All the teamwork, the sense of accomplishment and happiness
will always be part of my memories.
If only, life was like this now. I really dread schooling
because of everything that is happening around me.
Half a yr more, please let time pass faster.
All the bad memories will come to an end soon.
Alright. thats all. bye.

I wish upon the stars.

Amath from 9-12 tdy.
Did differentiation booklet,
focusing on techniques and max, min
problem sums.
Sat in alittle while for combined band,
lunch.
Was with the trumpetors intitally, then
joined Rizal, Vanessa and Roxane.
Listened to them talk about poly and university life.
Stress.
Combined band again, sectionals and
dinner with wonderful people. (:
Home. Onlined etc.
Okay, time to get going. Bye.
Im thinking what if you guys had said
all came true.
Im thinking what will happen next.
I dont know what im thinking too.
Dont ask me. I dont wanna tell or mention about it.
I dont look forward to the future for now.
But still, i wanna thank you all for cheering me up
and all. You guys are great.
I will fall asleep tnight, with nothing except a big smile.
Perhaps i will feel better this way.

Its not the same anymore.

One more week to school reopen.
Got to clear up last few parts of hws.
Oh well.

Somehow what R told me, worked

and got stucked in my head.

And i finally reacted to it, though he

told me once before.

And i think i should keep things going.

Thanks for leaving an impact on me. :D

Alright, currently plans are alittle screwed up.

Shall see how tdy goes then.

And yes, i got quite a number of things i wanna do.

1. Movie.

2. Lunch with wonderful ppl.

3. Probably shopping with wonderful ppl

all over sg. :D

4. Clique outing

Alright, C, tell me which one you want! :D

Bye.

Im feeling super pissed right now.

You promised that we'll help them

on our behalf, when we didnt even say anything.

Its not that we dont want to help them,

but how many times have they done it.

surely they can do it without our help.

you cannot expect that when they need help, we

will always be available right.

you told us so last minute, yet you expect us to help.

we got our own things to do right.

Gah. I hate this.

The little escape from reality.

Friday (18june)
Met C on the mrt platform.
Took a train to Bugis.
Talked about alot of things on our way there.
Started walking around, to find gift
while we continued our long long stories. :D
After a long time, C finally decided on what to get.
Continued walking around the mall.
By 5pm, our legs were in pain. So i decided
to get yogurt and we sat in JCO to continue
talking. She told me about everything.
Secrets shared. HAH.
Today's talk and trip is highly confidential.
alright, shall stop here. bye.

-hey. my dog is pretty. are you jealous?
Inside joke! C, this is for you! HAH.

when you feel really down inside,
you wished there was someone
out there who's willing to
listen to your problems and support you.
or someone who at least ask if you
are okay.
and im thankful that you did it
as a good friend. thanks R.
i will remember what you told me.
& stop bullying me. :D

Another boundary in life.

Thursday. (17june)

woke up feeling really disturbed deep inside.

decided to blog, and off to shower and out of my hse.

travelled to tm to meet someone to exchange our calculators,

because we accidentally took each other's while packing

up after intensive amath session that day.

after that, walked around the mall and think about some stuff.

decided to spend my time at popular, looking for some

stuff, while waiting for the rest of my clique to reach tm.

finally decided to get a book that i loved alot when i was

in primary school. it leaves me feeling that life

is much simpler now, and that im back to my happy times.

started reading the book, while listening to song and thinking

of stuffs. i just dont feel like caring about anything else, i guess.

after sometime, they arrived and we went for lunch.

it was pretty awesome. we shared our stories tgt.

really enjoyable. thanks people. (:

after lunch, waited for K and M.

slacked and walked around. then went to

watch K and M have their lunch. and awesome E

did something to my nails. :D

after they are done, slacked somemore and home.

dinner, tv and used com. as usual. and now blogging.

Friday (18june)

Out.

Oh well, i should be sleeping now.

so yeah, bye.


K and W :
thanks for listening to my problems.
for once, i really opened up and talked
about what has been bothering me for
a long time. told k about something, that no one
else knows, except both of us.
thanks for letting me know your prespective,
perhaps i just need to believe and trust.
hope everything will be alright. i will think
through what you guys tell me.
thank you for lending your ears to me and
giving me your word of advice.
once again, thank you!

i wish i could laugh like there's no tmr sometimes.

when things are moving fast, you need to make a quick decision as well.

I got to go soon, so shall just blog

for awhile.

i will include details the next time i update.

thinking about yesterday, i felt that somehow

things do change, no matter what. often, i dont know how it happen,

or maybe because its just too sudden. each time it happens,

it disturbs me alot. yeah, pretty much. its just some unexplainable

feeling inside. for the past few days, i've been reading someone's blog.

and im amazed, because the way we feel and think is exactly the same.

But, thing is, we may not feel comfortable with sharing our problems

together, knowing her/his character. age gap is the problem, i guess?

if not for that, i guess you are definitely someone who i can confide in.

or maybe i still can? i dont know, this, i need to think about it.

well, other than him/her, i dont know who i can confide in.

im still feeling very disturbed now, though im feeling real tired

because i slept at 3am plus last night.

sometimes, its not whether you can stop thinking about it or not.

its just the way you're feeling. it makes you feel more helpless

when you got no idea who you can confide in. you may think

that the way to handle it, is to give yourself some space and all.

but deep inside, you are pretty much disturb by it, or will dwell

on it for a long long time. maybe weeks, months?

like come on, everyone does that, perhaps not openly.

and thats the way im feeling now.

there are problems, definitely. perhaps just hidden.

you dont know, till you see it. when everyone starts to

change, how would you react?

guess i'll think about it tnight again. 3am once again?

i dont know.

The strength to carry on.

Oh well. Back to blogging.
Just something short tdy.
I really need friday to come quickly.
Like real quick.
Everything around me is bad now.
And the most awesome part is,
it only happens when best friend is not around!
Gah. Why am i so unlucky man.
1234! The time best friend likes the most!
Come back soon!
Gone.

Counting days.

13 june.
Happy Birthday Sister! :D
May all your dreams come true.
Study hard for PSLE and stop gaming. :D
And lastly, all the best in everything.
Be glad. Im the first one to wish you!
Awwwww. Alright. LOL.

1 day down, more to come.
oh well. i guess its life.
shall stop here. details not to be leaked out
just yet. await for 18june!
bye.

I wouldnt miss any chance.

Its close to 11 now.
Quick blogging then.
I finally met up with special someone.
Awwwww. I bet we missed each other alot. :D
Alright. So mac for breakfast.
Heart talks for sometime.
Chemistry for awhile, then moved on to Amaths.
Seriously, we got real serious in our work
when doing Amath. We stopped talking about whats
happening in our life and did Amaths.
Amazingly. Haha. (:
Somehow, amaths really killed our brain cells.
Kept complaining to special someone about my neck pain.
Questions were tough, so we discussed.
We were figuring out the steps halfway through then
suddenly we both stare into space at the same time,
because we didnt know how to carry on.
Epic moment of us. Oh well.
Continued Amaths intensive session till 5pm.
Homed after that.
Slept for half an hour or so.
Went out again to celebrate Sister's bday tdy
instead of tmr, when her bday is tmr. LOL.
Nydc for dinner. Awesome ttm.
Got some groceries and finally home.
Currently talking about random stuffs on Msn.
Oh well. Stop here. Bye.
Hope next week will pass faster. Gah.
Guess will have to force myself to concentrate
and stop getting distracted. Oh well.

Shadow in the limelight.

Im starting to lose motivation
in completing my homeworks.
Its just plain boring to keep doing
homeworks and nothing else.
Since its so boring, i decided to slack
for awhile. :D
Oh yes. And trip for today is postponed
to tmr instead. Someone has to go for checkup,
so oh well. Im kinda excited for tmr's trip.
Its been long since we met each other up and have
our heart talks. Totally look forward tmr.
Okay. i shall stop here for now.
-Gone. :D

Abracadabra (:

Alright. Its time for me to run through what
i did for the past few days.
Monday (7 june)
-Went to E's hse.
-Used com.
-Started to do homeworks.
-Lunch. Cooked by M. Thanks! :D
-Homework (:
-Slack, chat and Home.
*I was actually feeling pissed when i went to sleep.
Tuesday (8june)
-Woke up at a very late time.
-Went to Damai.
-Taught two Sec 1 clarinetists.
-Lunch with Awesome people.
-Went to Sophia's hse.
-Home.
-Used com.
-Finished English.
-Found out about something, felt super duper
pissed.
*Sorry. I hope you understand why im reacting in this way.
And thanks for making me feel alright.
Wednesday (9june)
-Did chemistry. :D
Awesome day. Yay. (:
Thursday (10june)
-Spent my day at home, doing homeworks.
Friday (11june)
-Shall update again.
-Will be out with someone special. :D
Okay. Shall stop here. Bye.