Not me

Just hang on and persevere. 3/4 more years to go, before I can finally start a new life. I can do this. Got to constantly remind myself, so I'll not think too much. Getaway will come soon, as much as I need it so badly right now. I just want to be alone and happy again, so at least life doesn't seem like its too torturous to live on. Maybe I just need some hope within myself. Had been having my meals all alone by myself. I prefer things to be this way. People might think that I'm lonely, but its my way of giving myself time and space to breathe and take things easy. I know I haven't been replying texts constantly, but I just don't want people to bother about me too much. I just hope some people stop asking questions, I just don't feel like saying anything now.

Start anew

I believe, my life had been really happening these two weeks. Had a fever, along with a really bad throat initially. Seen a doc, but medicine was useless, and then I lost my voice for two days. Felt really pathetic when I couldnt speak properly and my screams arent louder than people who talks with their normal voice. :/ Had to suffer with eating something light so my throat gets to heal faster. And when I tried to drink bbt, I was kinda stopped by 5 guys. Almost wanted to find a corner, squat there and cry. Hah, I pity myself. Then headed to see another doc for a better medicine, and doc fees exceeded 50 bucks. ): Money fly :x Lucky I recovered within three days and was finally back at work.
Work had been alright, except that it was really busy due to parkway's opening special promotion. Customers queued from the cashier all the way to the other end of the store. Scheduled to be at the cashier for the whole day was really stressful, when no matter how fast you tried to serve the customers, the queue just kept getting longer. Supposed to end work at 12pm on friday, but ended up extended work time till 7.30pm. It was a really tiring day at work, but time pass really fast when its busy. :) Headed to cold storage and got some gummies with Lynn before meeting Alicia for dinner. Had subway for dinner and finally headed home, and crashed after an hour of shower and tv.
Out on saturday with my cute mom for Kfc as late lunch before shopping last min for Stella's birthday present. Home at 7pm to study for my test before taking a shower and met Sibing at 8.30pm at the mrt station. Met her and went to Stella's advanced birthday chalet. Great catch up with the girls, and photo spam before we left the chalet and went home. Miss them so much! Totally need to plan another meet up with them soon. :) I predict I'm going to business school for lunch with those girls alot since most of us are studying at TP. ^^
Rise and shine early on Sunday morning, and prepared for swimming. Yes, I'm back to swimming lessons, because I'm going for the next award. Excited and nervous, yet determined to do well. :) Reached just on time for lesson, but I'm the first to reach in my class. Interesting. Did lots of laps for different strokes, and it was super tiring especially when I'm down with one arm. Coach realised that there was something weird with one of my arm, and asked about it. So I told him I injured my left elbow, probably some pain at the joint. He took a look at it, and let me take my time to do my laps. Nice guy! Lesson ended and went to wash up before getting my mac breakfast alone. Sometimes, I really like the feeling of being alone. It's the time when I can think of things, what I should, what I shouldnt and how to handle certain issues. I value my private time a lot.  Had breakfast and went for work. It was busy though it wasnt as busy compared to friday and saturday. Didnt exactly work with those who are close to me except for some, but I survived work anyway. Ended work at 12am, and went home. Took time to wash up some stuff, before a shower and supper. Finally crashed on bed at close to 2am. Mad tired. There's still work today to go, before I can get more sleep over the next few days. This week and next week gonna be another hectic week, with activities packed almost every single day. Parents' night perf, orientation camp, work, swimming, school, dance pracs, and school will officially start on 23 april. So not ready for everything that's about to come. In any case, pray hard that I'll survive these tough and busy times before school starts. A new life, and new beginning. Everyone fighting! ^^

I'm single

I hate it when people think that I'm attached/ in a relationship with someone, just because I'm out with a guy friend alone, or when I'm in physical contact with them, say punching them or something because we're just playing around. They are just my best friends who are always there for me when I'm down and out, when I needed encouragement and advices. I've already been mistaken that I was with 5 different guys just because I was hanging out with them. Gosh, I must have lots of boyfriends then. And usually, people who ask me things like : are you attached/ in a relationship/ he likes you/ you like him? , gets on my nerves a lot, because they are actually the ones who arent even close to me. Even IF I'm attached etc, I dont see a need to tell them. Merely just being kpo, trying to find topic to gossip about, then bitch about you behind your back. These people need to get a life and stop bugging me with all these stupid questions. To be honest, I'm not even interested in going on a relationship right now in life. I'm already tired of leading my life, why would I get a boyfriend then give him more burden? I just want to treat everyone as a friend or more, but definitely not getting together or smth. I seriously hope none of my guy friends treat me more than a friend, because that's when things starts to get complicated. #Just saying. So, after this, I hope everyone will stop assuming that 'Im attached', unless you catch me holding hands, hugging or kissing a guy with your own eyes ok. k, bye.