The struggle for mid-yr exams

Okay. So first time ever
in this year, i finished all my hws
by saturday afternoon.
Afternoon nap.
Tried to do my NYAA.
Success rate: 50%.
FAIL.

25 april.
Woke up at 10plus.
Awesome.
TV-ed, Breakfast.
Memorised Chem stuff.
Lunch.
And now, shall go study for mid-yr. :D
Click and Vanish.
Winks.

Absolute

1. My voice is terribly screwed tdy, hence
skipped 2.4km run which is so-not-awesome.
2. I had to miss a call from Andrea because i couldnt
even talk. Sorry.
3. Stayed at home the whole day.
4. Caught up on my HK drama, like finally.
5. Keep eating non-stop.
6. I finished reading a book.
7. I just started doing my homeworks because
im so reluctant to do it.
8. I need to start studying for mid-yr exams.
9. I need to talk to someone.
10. I need medicine, like now.

Okay. Back after mid-yr exams.
Bye.

If i ever give you a special symbol,
it will be absolute T because no matter how
negative i feel, how bad my day is,
you always never fail to turn it
back to postive again. Thanks for everything. (:

I dont know anymore.

It was a really tiring week
for me.
With so many things happening around me.
I dont know how am i even suppose to react.
I've got alot of things deep inside my heart
that i wanted to say.
But seems like everyone's busy with their own stuffs.
And each time when i wanted to speak my mind,
i dont seem to be able to do it.
Somehow, the intense pressure in myself is an undescribable feeling.
Words couldnt explain how i feel deep inside.
Probably it was only a simple thing to the others,
but not to me, at least.
I could say no one would ever feel how i feel unless they are me.

Adding on was Amaths test.
This is seriously depressing.
And after recess, we had another round of amaths lesson.
Mrs loke taught define intergrals.
For once, i was so distracted that i missed out on everything.
And i guess she failed to realise this time.
Because usually if she knows im distracted,
she would have told me to answer her qns on purpose.
After she taught define intergrals, she told us to do
the qns.
Got nothing because i just dont get it.
And still feeling very distracted.
And she had to teach me again.
Sorry, but i didnt do it on purpose to not listen to your lesson.
I just need thinking and reflecting space.

After school.
Was supposed to meet clique.
Met and didnt talk.
Because i really didnt want after i know about somethings.
So was walking behind and Michael gave me a push to join them.
Didnt really talk. They went varinice, while i stoned at the bus stop.
Kaibin gave me a call to ask what happened to me.
Was thinking of going home initially.
Checked the time, changed my mind.
Just hop onto bus and trained to Airport.
Dont ask me why i even went there.
I dont know. I just follow where my heart wants to go.
Reached and was way too tired to think.
Fell asleep until she sms-ed me.
She came over to find me.
Heart talks on our way to mac.
Had a super late lunch, hence skipping dinner.
Did some homework and went home at 7pm.

Reached home.
Heart talks with yilin.
Updated each other on our lives.
Talked for at least 1hr.
Watched tv after the call.
Onlined but didnt really talk much.
Listened songs and knocked off at 11pm.

And before i go off,
I would want to thank all those who listened to me
and gave me encouragement.
Although right now, i have not decide what to do,
but i believe i will soon.
Bye.

At times i failed to express myself
to you about my problems.
But in any case, i still thank you for
accompanying me till midnight
because i haven finish my hws due to
my problems. Nicest person ever. (:

So-not-awesome

1. I was almost late for school today.
2. I got a rest from SS, since Ms hassan didnt come.
3. We have yet to get things settled.
4. Emaths test, was super awesome huh.
5. EL situational writing test, was such a surprise
for me and some others, since we dont even know that.
6. CL was super awesome.
7. I accidentally lost my temper, and sort of attitude
alittle to E. Sorry!
8. Clique study was awesome tdy.
9. I left my Amaths TYS with E. -.-
10. Im prepared to get screwed by Amaths test tmr.
Bye.

Last performance

Yes, So i have managed to survive through this
long and tiring week.
With tests every single day in school
and rehearsals after school till 6pm/7pm.
Seriously, gave up on my homeworks and tests.
Came home everyday feeling so tired,
and just knock out to sleep.
But, well. Still hope i can at least pass my tests.
-
Today was the last performance for all the sec 4s.
Woke up real early. Skipped breakfast.
Prepared, left house. Bus-ed to school.
On the way, met Roxane to collect shoes
and went to school.
Got real high in the morning.
Got no idea why too.
So got everything settled, combined warm ups.
Played concert Bb scale and rushed off with the
Logistics members to setup in the parade square.
Just nice, Huiping was there to help me. :D
Seriously, thank her alot.
Band members started to settle down in the parade square
at 8.35am.
But the problem is. We had to be ready by 8.45am
to welcome the GOH.
And we had yet to get all the instruments down at the
parade square, move in the music room chairs etc.
Obviously panicked alittle,
yet Ms Zhang still can take her time to take a picture of
Me and Yilin.
After the picture, rushed off and settled everything
in the parade square and was on ready-mode to play.
Waited super duper long for the GOH.
Finally. Finished the parade.
Went to the dnt lab to rest. Ate and drank while
talking to Huiping :D
After sometime, setup layout again in the atrium.
As usual. Logistics members, Me and Huiping were there
to settle it.
Went to talk to Mr. Wong with the other leaders
while other instruments were shifted there.
Attire check. And got members settled down for tuning.
Lunch-time concert began.
Felt that it was a job well done.
Packed up and talked with Mr. Wong
and some other band members.
Lunch-ed with Kh. (:
Rushed back to school.
Slept for 10mins because of Huiping!
Hahaha. Right, then combined band.
Feeling super tired by then.
Tried Second suite in F, Concerto and Variants.
Finished off and packed up.
Band dismiss.
-
Dinner with Huiping, Weitian, Kaibin and Michael.
Michael went off, and Eoin joined us.
Had a good laugh at kfc with them.
Weitian was feeling terrible because she was the victim.
Went to PG with them.
Weitian left at 8plus, while we continued talking.
Homed at 10plus.
Rushing off, goodnight to all.

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Its the last performance with the band today.
Memories starts to flashback.
Days where i had struggled to play a clarinet
when i was in Sec 1.
From 2nd to 3rd to alto clar, to 1st and 3rd again.
Seriously was a long and tough journey,
but well, i still made it to the end at least.
Syf in 2009. Results was a disappointment.
Held on to one another, cried our hearts out.
Becoming someone that had that special chance.
Walked on the journey for 1yr with the other leaders.
All the performances. All the section outings.
All the bbt talks with the band members
till late at night, as if we dont have to go home.
The band camp game, cling cling.
Having band almost everyday after school.
All the friendships built through band.
And now, its almost time to say goodbye and wish them all the best
for everything.
Damai winds walk on! I want you all to succeed.
If you all ever feel like giving up,
remind yourself why you had hang on in the first place.
Jy band! I wait for the good news. :D

And of course, lastly. I hope all the Sec 4s enjoyed the
last performance we all could have together.
And well done guys. We made it together and now, this will be part
of our memories. Thanks for everything. :D

In trouble

Alright, its 11pm right now.
Out of the three homeworks,
emaths, amaths and chinese.
I managed to finish both emaths and
amaths.
But the thing is i need to submit
my chinese homework tmr.
And the best part is, the homework consists of
two chinese papers.
Obviously, im so dead.
And the next great thing is, im gonna sleep now
and wake up at 3.45am to do my work.
Hopefully, i will be able to survive with these few hrs of sleep.
But, deep inside, i know i cant.
To make matters more 'challenging' , there is full-dress rehearsal
tmr till 7pm.
And there's is chinese test tmr.
How awesome.
'I cant love my life more than this'.
And after tmr's rehearsal, got to rush home
to study for history test.
Seriously, Welcome to my life.
Wish for all the best.
Goodnight people.

Recollection

3 April 2010
Had band practice from 8am-6pm.
Took Sectional warm ups.
Break up into our parts and sectionals on
Speech Day songs.
Taught Ben, Phonthip and Xiwen on
Fiesta de los bravos.
End of sectionals.
Combined band in hall.
Trying to hang on because
i was feeling super giddy.
Ended at 1plus.
Lunch-ed with Samuel and Austin.
Back to school.
Continued with sectionals.
Taught the 3rds on Variants.
Taught Austin on Variants.
Combined band in Music Room.
Guided Austin for combined band till 5.45pm.
Pack up and end of band practice.

Went to 7-11 with Kaibin, Michael and Sophia.
I Bought cup noodles, Sophia got her mashed potato.
Went over to fairprice.
Kaibin got what he want.
Off to photocopy scores together,
while michael got his bbt.
After that, he rushed home before we could finish
photocopy-ing the scores.
After photocopying the scores,
Kaibin decided to go to the floating platform to find his
sister, while sophia went home.
Walked with Kaibin to the floating platform.
Suddenly, phone vibrating.
Picked up call from Sophia.
She said she need an umbrella. So we walked back
to find her.
Walked her back to her house void deck.

After that, went mac for dinner.
Heart talks there, while watching soccer.
Super noisy each time either team scores a goal,
or almost score a goal because people just kept screaming
and cheering.
At about 9pm, decided to walk to the bus stop
to go home.
On our way there, saw a cat.
Kaibin wanted to touch it, so he squat down.
The cat touched him instead, LOL.
And the funniest thing is, He said the cat's touch felt
like Samuel.
Laughed all the way while searching for bus stop.
Saw this look-alike bus stop.
In the end, it is a taxi-stand.
Super funny ttm.
Continued walking in search of a bus stop.
Finally found, waited for 225.
Bused to Bedok inter, and Mrt-ed to Pasir ris
and bused back home again.
Reached home at 10plus.
Knocked out by 11.15pm.

4 April
Time to study for geog test.
Bye.

Its amazing how strangers become friends,
then to close friends and now best friends.
Love you clique ! (:

Im done!

TADAH!
Here to declare,
I have finished all homeworks today!
Now im left with revision for tests.
Recently realised quite alot of people
have friendship problems and family problems.
Well, no matter what,
Still hope you all cheer up!
Not really good at cheering ppl up,
but still if you guys need a listening ear,
i will be there.
Just hope at least this could help.
Love you guys (:
-
So, a day out with M,W and K.
Nice day out with them!
As usual, went really high though
its outdoors.
Managed to concentrate and get hws done.
Good thing. At least, no need isolation.
Okay, so stayed out till 5plus.
Back at home by 6pm.
Continued with hw.
Get things done till now.
Alright, shall sleep soon, i guess.
And get ready for tmr's band prac. :D
Bye.

Just wanna say thank you!

Well, could say recently, things arent
going smoothly, in school.
But at least everything is fine at home.
I could say, is not about studies,
because mum is not giving me stress,
she just wish that i can give my best shot
maybe because she believes in me.
So thanks mum!
Right. So friendship is the next thing that comes.
Actually, im quite confused and tired right now.
I seriously heard too much things to the extend
that i dont know what to do now.
And plus, im tired physically and mentally,
will only settle it at a later time.

Along this tough journey, found a clique.
I guess you guys are the only reason now,
for me to look forward to school.
Through this journey, we had heart talks,
laughter, joy and fun all together.
I could say, i really appreciate every little
thing you guys had done for me.
From bringing packed lunch for me on earth hour day,
to coming back to school to escort me.
At that moment, i was seriously touched by your actions.
Though i didnt say it out at that point, i really appreciated it.
And at least, you guys managed to let me feel that,
perhaps my life isnt that bad.
You guys were the ones who could read my mind
and expressions. One of the first ones to know
that there's something wrong with me.
The ones that would accompany me and listen to my troubles
patiently and cheer me up after that.
The ones that would walk around the school compound with me
because im feeling down.
Using a giraffe to talk to me and cheer me up.
Stayed back to wait for me to finish my homework.
You guys are really great, what more can i say?
Maybe everyone could say that this is what friends are for.
But i guess not. Not all friends are able to do this,
and furthermore, we dont actually know one another that well yet.
To me, you guys seriously rock my world ttm.
And forever, brothers and sisters never die!
Love you guys, and thanks for everything!

Also, not forgetting to thank other ppl who
showed me care and concern in a way or another.
: Yilin, May, Siangying, Reyna, Qian hui, Zoey Leow,
the whole clique and some classmates.
Thanks alot (:

Okay. Time to pick myself up.
I need to, i must and i should.
Alright. Shall knocked out soon.
Bye.

And before that.
My dear girl, cheer up!
Remember our promise.
Talk to you soon! (:

And also, lastly,
To someone : Get well soon!
And also, tty soon. :D