Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Hectic lifestyle

For the first time ever since school started, I took some time to blog! Just gonna say that I did one of the coolest thing ever last friday, which is to have a serious heart talk with a guy. Actually, this heart talk came about when I started to realise something about two of my close guy friends. A is one who I get to see every single day at school, but it seem like I dont know about him, neither does he know anything about me. On the other hand, I dont see B everyday, in fact I havent seen him or had meals with him for the past one week, yet he knows so much about me, that can include my personal problems. I just feel that things shouldnt be this way, its just strange.
To be honest, I was feeling super vexed about this, and stressed up about school. Seeing him everyday at school, yet not knowing what to say can be just so. disturbing? I just dont feel like talking at all. But, yes, he is one of the guys that I definitely enjoy talking to, sharing my problems etc. As he noticed the change of tone in my texts etc, I admitted that I was really vexed. Vexed over this, seriously. Finally after one whole hectic week of school, A waited for me up till 9pm in school. Reason being, he knew I needed to talk. Like talk this out, everything. Sat at the interchange and talked about almost everything and thereafter we both felt way better than before. I know his thoughts, his past etc.
Today, I met his friends and him at the bus stop while I was waiting for my bus to get home. Just so happen that throughout the whole bus journey, we didnt even talk at all since he was busy entertaining his friend. And oops, I was in a bad mood, didnt say anything and just got off the bus and speed walk to top up my card. Secretly prayed that he didnt notice I was angry, but obviously he did. Came right up behind me, and started complaining why I didnt bother picking up his calls when my phone was in silent mode. Then that boy pretended to be angry and started walking away quickly, when I'm supposed to be the one being angry. But I'm forever soft hearted, so I gave in. I pulled him back and made him talk. He started laughing and keep insisting that I was angry and then started throwing in chunks of explanations about what happened. Decided to forgive him and accompanied him to queue for the bus before heading home. Long day to survive tmr. I hope I can do this!