Mark my words

Dedicated to my #1 Buddy! -Inserts lots of hearts-
We started off as strangers, to good friends, and best buddies now. Its amazing how our friendship grew so much in such a short time, and I'm glad I met this awesome buddy. The one who takes the initiative to text me good morning, or leave me a text whenever I fell asleep the previous night before saying goodnight, to text him when I get up. The one who always ask if something happened whenever I'm not talking much. The one who spend his time understanding me, giving me space when I want to be alone. The one who understands my silence. The one who will spend time thinking of poems himself just to cheer me up with them. The one who would come all the way from the other side of SG, just to have breakfast with me before work. The one who rather sacrifice his sleep just because he wants to talk to me. The one who will be honest and tells me I'm important to him, and he miss me whenever he doesnt see me at work. The one who wants me to tell him everything and anything, so that we'll go through it together. The one who wants to send me to the clinic when I'm so sick to even move an inch. And of course the one who never fails to cheer me up with all the sweet words. This, is someone who had done alot for me, and I'm really thankful. :)
It's funny how we made a deal to sleep together at the same time, to be really honest to tell each other -I MISS YOU, how he said we will go through things together, I'm gonna spend more time with you and I WANNA BE THE REASON YOU SMILE. Sounded like he's my boyfriend, but I guess he's cute that way. He's gonna be someone I never want to lose. May our friendship last forever! :D

Losing hope

Yesterday was one of the most horrible day at work. :/ Started running a high fever after dinner, and I was unfortunately scheduled to be at the front of the shopfloor for 4hrs straight. Fingers turned terribly cold that I cant feel my body temperature myself to judge that I was actually running a fever. My pale face and cold fingers got the attention of many of my colleagues who all took turns to touch my forehead and asked if I wanted to go home. The strange thing was asst.manager actually touched my forehead and said that I'm not having a fever. So, since there was nothing I could say, I just had to stayed till I end work. Last 2 hours before closing was the most horrible when my high body temp caused me a super terrible headache, and I had to attend to customers and greet them whenever they enter or leave the store with a super bad throat. Supposingly after I end work, I had to attend to the funeral with my siblings. Due to headache and high fever, I knew I needed to head home and rest. Ended up didnt attend funeral, and I'm all alone at home feeling bad about it. Thank God my dad came back last night and fed me panadol, my fever's gone, only left to suffer with a bad throat. I guess I'll head to bed for more sleep now. Need more hope for better things in life. Bye readers.

Its like a tattoo

I'm going through one of my toughest times right now, and things arent getting better. Honestly speaking, I wonder why I'm still living life when everything seem so bad that I cant even make myself think positively. I'm tired living life, living life this way in SG. I really want to getaway badly, all alone. Whatever that happened recently hit me hard, I feel like I can no longer hold everything in there as much as I know I cannot breakdown. You know how that feels? I'm keeping everything within myself and not let anyone worry about me, so I've not been talking much about everything that's affecting me. The lack of sleep, the stress and emotions I'm keeping within, affects my appetite too much that one meal is enough to last me the whole day when I usually take four meals a day. Sometimes, all I need is for people who I care about to care for me, to be there when I need someone to listen and hug me because they know how badly I need it as a form of encouragement. Enough said, I think I'm used to disappointments, heartbreaks and tears. No one ever appreciates and see the good side of me. Prepared to suffer from fatigue for the next three/ four days with work and funeral issues to handle. Just praying hard for nobody to notice my fake smile etc tmr at work. Nothing can describe how I feel now. When I needed someone to be there for me badly, think, where were you?

A new record

Typing away, worrying about my health. Havent been sleeping well lately, I guess I'm having some serious insomnia problem. :/ Been getting home only in the middle of the night, probably 2/3am, and only been surviving with 4hrs or less of sleep before work the next day. How pathetic this is? I mean I bet my dad sleeps more than me, though he's working too! Guess only my buddy knows about how serious my condition is right now, after telling him what exactly happened. I woke up one of the nights, couldnt walk straight and crashed into the wall. Shocked and almost fall back, before ending up wobbling back to my bed for sleep. I woke up this morning with trembling hands. This is indeed getting too serious, maybe I should see a doc for my condition. Right now, I should get more sleep and I'm back to work tmr again. Life's a cycle of repeated events, just like how they'll say history repeats itself. It's time to get better food and rest, before I officially fall sick. Nevertheless, thank you for those who showed their care and concern. You guys are the best :)