You dont know me

I wished I could find something new to keep myself happy, instead of having to depend on my friends to constantly be here for me and to cheer me up. Each time when I've nobody to talk to because they are all either schooling or working, I start to think back about all that had happened. Things that have changed between us, changed me, you and our lives. I hate the fact how emotional I feel each time I think about some people. The people who I actually cared most, always would end up leaving me. Before you know it, your heart breaks into pieces, and you're left all alone to pick yourself up and then, history repeats itself. I hate it when I feel like I'm always the one trying so hard to put everything back together. Am I really that insignificant? I hate how my social life is, I hate how I didnt guarded my heart against the bad people. Sigh, I should really get over all these. If there ever gonna be pills invented to keep a human happy every single day, I dont mind overdosing myself with it before I suffer from depression. I want to leave SG so badly, to start my life anew. I need hope.
Alright, time to get into the happy mood before I meet J later for sushi buffet. She's such a sweetheart. (: