Time Machine

2011 was a year filled with ups and lots of downs, but I guess I learnt alot through all these. Seriously, hope that 2012 can be a much better year.

So I spent Xmas eve, xmas, new year eve and new year at work. Been working almost every single day, I know I sound like a crazy workaholic right now. :/ And I know my friends are gonna say that, this is so no life, but oh well. Life goes on isnt it? :P Been so sleep deprived nowadays, my eyes are so small. But, I cant help it as well. Schedules had been so bad, jump shifts twice, did many full shifts and worked 8 days straight before I get my off day. Can I complain ? Hahh, forced to work full shifts on both weekends like every week, I think this is worse than being a full timer. At least, full timers get either weekend off, and are only required to work 5 days a week. I work 5 days a week with no weekends off. Seriously pure madness. And then I think work drive me crazy, I started getting hyper, my colleagues started to ask what happened to me. Not that being happy is bad, but they just find it unusual for someone to be able to keep their energy level up with work of 8 days. New achievement. Honestly speaking, Im used to working like everyday to the extent that when I have off days, I dont know what to do, whether to just sleep at home or hang out with my buddies. I feel bad that I have to turn down outings almost everytime because of work when my buddies are finally having holidays. But well, I dont think I can do anything about it, unless I quit my job. Sadly, I still didnt get to quit till now, so I think I just have to live with it. Thank God for work, I can escape from my screwed social life with some people. Work to avoid people you dont wanna talk to, work to avoid your problems / troubles, and work to earn money. I think Im doing a good job here. :X So not ready to face everything I've been avoiding because I havent figure out what I should do to salvage things and solve my problems. Till then, work shall be my runaway. Thanks to those who showed lots of care and concern through many different ways every single day, about my health, listening to me about my problems etc. With that, I believe I will be able to figure things out slowly and have a better year than 2011.

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First day of 2012, tried my best to avoid talking to you, took a detour and not look at you. I guess it was pretty obvious you started avoiding. Ended up, I replied to your questions because I was soft-hearted. But I guess at least you showed you cared, so I guess I will forgive you. Hahhh, Joke. :X