Let go
Slept at 2am last night, and woke up just in time for early lunch before meeting a pretty girl for sherlock holmes before work starts. Felt so bad for making my pretty colleague wait for me, because I was late. :X
So anyway, watched sherlock holmes and we both felt that the movie was kinda awesome. (: Though we only know each other through work last month, I actually realised we both can click rather well together, so I decided to confide in her about my problems. As expected, she got a shocked about how screwed my social life could be, it was probably not something she could have imagined. After talking to her about some of my problems, I actually started to think back about some of my friends.
Like I told her, I will only consider myself as having many Hi-Bye friends. Friends that arent close to me, they wouldnt be the ones who listen to my problems, giving me advices, much less giving me support and help. :/ Honestly speaking, I feel like things were too one way. Its like, I felt like in most of my friendships, I will be the one giving in more, doing more much than the other party. I guess people just have to understand, everyone have lots of different friends, and if you're the only one trying your best to sustain your friendship, it will never work. The one giving in more will get tired too, we are all humans arent we? Sometimes, I really wished for people to be more appreciative with what they have, and not take things for granted. I always wished I was someone's priority, but looking at the way things are, I know I'm only an option. Someone they would turn to, only when they have problems, only when they needed someone to confide in etc. Im always afraid of losing friends because I know they play an important role in my life, but who was afraid of losing me? Pretty girl told me to relax and let things be, and learn to let go because these are things I cant control in life. Maybe I should really learn to let go, and be happier before I drive myself crazy. Sigh, whatever it is. All in all, sincerely wanna thank E for being there for me and making me smile everytime when he see me feeling unhappy through my tweets. Thank God for giving me someone to confide in, I guess I wont hope much anymore. Thank you to whoever who cared - Andrea, Eoin, Trysha, clique and colleagues. (:
So anyway, watched sherlock holmes and we both felt that the movie was kinda awesome. (: Though we only know each other through work last month, I actually realised we both can click rather well together, so I decided to confide in her about my problems. As expected, she got a shocked about how screwed my social life could be, it was probably not something she could have imagined. After talking to her about some of my problems, I actually started to think back about some of my friends.
Like I told her, I will only consider myself as having many Hi-Bye friends. Friends that arent close to me, they wouldnt be the ones who listen to my problems, giving me advices, much less giving me support and help. :/ Honestly speaking, I feel like things were too one way. Its like, I felt like in most of my friendships, I will be the one giving in more, doing more much than the other party. I guess people just have to understand, everyone have lots of different friends, and if you're the only one trying your best to sustain your friendship, it will never work. The one giving in more will get tired too, we are all humans arent we? Sometimes, I really wished for people to be more appreciative with what they have, and not take things for granted. I always wished I was someone's priority, but looking at the way things are, I know I'm only an option. Someone they would turn to, only when they have problems, only when they needed someone to confide in etc. Im always afraid of losing friends because I know they play an important role in my life, but who was afraid of losing me? Pretty girl told me to relax and let things be, and learn to let go because these are things I cant control in life. Maybe I should really learn to let go, and be happier before I drive myself crazy. Sigh, whatever it is. All in all, sincerely wanna thank E for being there for me and making me smile everytime when he see me feeling unhappy through my tweets. Thank God for giving me someone to confide in, I guess I wont hope much anymore. Thank you to whoever who cared - Andrea, Eoin, Trysha, clique and colleagues. (:
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